It's gonna be a long while before I add any more art work. I love explosives. I know how to make some, but the biggest thing that I would ever blow up are old McDonald's toys. I like fireworks the most. My friends and I have decided to gather every Wednesday to get together before they all go their separate ways in life. Some into college, some into the work force, some into the military, and some into obscurity. I use to not have a social life, so these gatherings are special to me.

I need to buy more manga next month. 3 or 4 volumes are fine. I still need to get a paying job. I need to buy a laptop and an external hard drive for more storage space. I need to go to the next anime convention, but for that I need more money. Money is always an issue in today's society. The poor are getting poorer and the rich are getting richer. Even a worm will turn.

I hadn't slept for three days. PROTOTYPE looks bad ass. It's on my must have list. I got a good amount of Grad money. Still don't have gas at my house, which sucks. I really need a beer. Ever have the urge to kill everything around you? More specifically all humans? To tear out their bowels with your own two hands while they're still alive and conscious? To kill them so easily as a monster kills a man? My ears are always ringing. Well, not a ring per say, but the deafening sound of silence. I'd say the sound is about 56 hertz. A vast majority of people only hear it when they're in a factory, on a submarine, in a tunnel or cave, places like that. I hear it all the time, no matter where I am. It's quite maddening. Even in the Metro Dome I hear it over the crowds. It's quiet, but louder than a jet engine. Video game and manga keep me pacified. With out them, I'd have killed many people. Thankful for escapism and schizophrenia. I'm just average I guess.

Well, I forgot that the production of the Tenchi Muyo OVA complete series disk set was discontinued around 1999. Now the DVD set goes for at least $150.00 because it’s a collector’s item. I just want it because I enjoyed the whole story. Anyways, so my party didn’t turn out like I wanted on account of all but two people couldn’t make it. Pagels and Erik were the only ones and Erik had to leave at midnight to do something important. It was still fun though, so it wasn’t a complete bust. My mom picked me up from work on my birthday and made me get a haircut and pose for pictures, but at least lunch was good. Lean Chins it was. My aunt dropped me off at Borders where I met up with Erik and I ended up buying $60.00 worth of manga. Then, we went to Best Buy where Erik bought me the first season of the Ah! My Goddess anime for $50.00, the most he has ever spent on a gift for a friend to my knowledge. I have known him for 14 years of my 19-year life. Though he was also going on a spending spree, so it was spur of the moment. It’s kinda sad though, because I’m 19 and have only had 2 girlfriends, but that’s what I get for being too much of a gentlemen and also very random. Not to mention not acting on hints girls give me that they like me the size of Alaska out of worrying if I’m reading too much into it. But that’s the kinda guy I am. Carlisle gave me a Best Buy gift card and $11.00 so that I can buy the 4th disk of the Solty Rei anime he said he would buy me almost 2 years ago. It’s amazing that I finally have money again, but it’s gotta last me the summer. My dad’s restaurant, Q Fanatic, isn’t doing half bad. We still don’t have gas at my house, so that sucks. The water’s so cold it’s painful to shower. I need to put a little more effort into school so that I don’t fail my last four classes, although I have all the credits I need to pass. I need to get a job so that I have some cash flow. It sucks being poor. The video game Prototype looks interesting. I still need to finish the game Mass Effect. I’ll finally start typing the 1st rough draft of my story; also I’m going to see if some of my friends on Deviant Art would draw the main characters. Let’s see if my next party’s any better.

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I am hungry. I will eats a food. OK, where was I. Oh yeah, any ways whenever I play a video game I have a tendency to light enemies and myself on fire. I usually survive,but they don't. They say once burned twice shy. I guess they weren't talking about me. Even in the real world I don't burn very easily. I don't even bruise any more. Boxes are Gordon Freeman's mortal enemy. People, read more manga, it will do you wonders.

Here is a poem I wrote:

Inside


Inner darkness, the small light keeps it at bay
Hopeless rage and smiling sorrow
Hiding the pain of the thought of what the darkness may do if the light were to go out.
It laughs sardonically whilst the light weeps
The defiant light
The pain behind the smile.

It's a little Emo, but I don't give a rat's ass. Well, that's all for tonight, see you in about nine hours.

Yeah, I'm not gonna go to school on Friday. I don't feel like it. My ten year old brother is an ass. I'm gonna buy Tenchi Muyo this week, more manga, and maybe an external hard drive. I'm stuck on my novel. I need names for the characters, villains, and more over a middle and end. The story itself is some what like a cross between Samurai Deeper Kyo, InuYasha, Immortal Rain, and figments of my imagination. I seriously need more manga though, because if I don't get some new stuff soon I just might go crazy. I'll probably read Love Hina for th 167 time through. I wish I aged slower, then I would have more time to read manga and watch anime and that would be really nice. So much to read and watch, so little time. That and I also need more money. If everyone in the real world would just stop fighting and read a damn book than there would probably be less wars, no guarantees. Well, I guess it's time to go home and go to sleep, wake up at the crack of dawn and go to that concrete slab they call a school. Until later 4-6-4-9.